Farrah:
May you now rest and no longer have to suffer and be in pain and can now forget about fighting cancer.

LOVE HER HAIR!


What a great woman she was and will definitely be a legend of our time.

if i had the time i would put more effort into exercising in everyday and plan my meals ahead of time. but for now i will just not buy any bad food and not eat it. more fresh veggies, low fat, fat free, low calorie, high fiber, more protein foods in my diet are needed.
if you have any suggestions on how i can accomplish this... please let me know.
and I can't believe I'm going to admit this but: the reason I hit this ultimate breaking point is that I actually had a hole in my pants. i tried to trick myself by saying that it was just an old pair of jeans but my brain knew better. it was because i have gained A LOT of weight! ALOT!!!!!!
*sigh*
I love to hate to love food but... i don't know if all this fat can give me a coronary one day. =(
we shall see how this big breaking point will help me. i have done it before (when i was even 10 lbs lighter than i am now) and it did work cuz i lost 6 lbs and... gained it all {plus some} back....
more later on this crazy thing i call my everest: to lose weight.